The reason behind the lack of new posts on this website are the negative feelings inside my head. I’m having a hard time getting things to work out fine and in a satisfactory manner for me and the world around me. I try to dodge confrontation as often as I can, I don’t wanna grow up and take responsability for my own actions, I would very much like to have someone around to take care of me and my financial neglectancy and my nonsense, I’m having trouble giving expression to my emotions and tend to make unexpected absurd tight turns for no reason. In other words, I’m experiencing a lot of difficulty keeping myself standing and/or ignoring the various suicidal thoughts that cross my mind. It even took me a long while to sit down and write this post. But since you all have been such great friends and true followers of my blog, I only found it right to let you all know what is going on with me. Being the beautiful kid I am, I realise things will be okeeeeej eventually and that I will come out of this misery a lot stronger for the future. I’ve been living on that edge for quite a while and since some time ago I slipped of that cliff and started falling. The surprising thing was, I couldn’t care less whether I’d fall and crash or would be able to fly. This feeling of lack of interest in my Haute Self is becoming a problem now, I’m the man next to God but obviously I’m not that big of an expert in controlling over life and death yet. You have to learn to let go to reach enlightment, but what if that means I have to let go of the only person bringing light in this life… Me

It’s a London thing… Apparently. Beautiful murals, paintings and still just being a cool and regular guy. I met David Shillinglaw through Roos from Subwalk and he did the wall at the back of G.A.N.G. Go see for yourself. Sweeeeeeet.

Pfoeiiiii, spend the last 8 hours thinking, rethinking and making decisions on which hill to be climbed and what package to be shipped. I guess it’s all in kannen en kruiken now and first manifest is for all competitors. After that only few will go through to round 2 and so on. Finally we’ll have only 5 riders doing the 6th and last manifest. This means they already have climbed 5 hills. For those people that came to the Arnhem Uphill Classic before, you know, this is going to be a killer. Bring out your best of legs, your largest bag, your stamina, a bit of luck and try to lose weight the next 3 days. Start is at 14:00, Cycloon HQ, van Muylwijkstraat 348, Arnhem. And remember, it’s all about helping Tour for Life collecting money for Artsen zonder Grenzen!!

Got a nice present and a superb cake from Kimi. Yet, another year older.

Things are going well. Not personally, I mean. But organising the Arnhem Uphill Alleycat is getting along just fine. Start of the race will be at 14:00. I still need two extra person for checkpoints but I know some will come forward, no sweat (and big thanx in advance). But next thing has come up for later that day. In the evening, 20:00 sharp, I’ll be auctioning (more picas on twitter @hautecourier) a shitload of parafenalia, cyclingcaps, fietskoeriershirts and bikemessengerbags for Artsen zonder Grenzen. All collected money will be for sponsoring the Cycloon team on Tour for Life. Kom and spend yor doekoe!!!

Dunno if anyone already noticed but this parrot is retwittering the news via tweets @HauteCourier. Come ‘n look me up, lemme know what you’re up to. I’ll show you what my work as a messenger is like on the Arnhem streets and at clients offices. And for the ladies… I’ll be looking for birds on bicycles!

So how are things coming along with the Arnhem Uphill, people asked me this week. Not too bad, I might say. Guustaaf offered his services for checkpoint and the plan is to make a race in which only the strong will survive. Checkpoints will only be open for a short amount of time. Limited amount of racers will go through to the next round. Een afvalrace waarbij u de Arnhemse heuvels zult beklimmen teneinde uw tegenstanders te verslaan op de gebieden van uithoudingsvermogen, fietskoerierskunde en een gezonde niet aflatende vorm van onuitputtelijk doorzetting. For potential foreigners and hopefully to be welcomed fakengers, who wanna come and join in on this monstruous alleycat. From start to finish it’ll go uphill, collecting a package, going downhill, grabbing a manifest, going uphill, getting a proof of delivery, going downhill, taking an order, going uphill, etcetera etcetera. Put that 29th of may in your agendas cause I’m expecting you to bring coins for the good cause. Money will be collected for Tour for Life’s Artsen zonder Grenzen.

Arnhem will be Greenhem for a year because we’re living, cycling and messengering in the winner of the Entente Florale 2009 competition. I hereby proudly present my hometown as the only GOLD medalist. I always knew that Arnhem was the best city to be a fietskoerier in and now it’s also be prooven to be the most beautiful and groenste stad van Europa.

Be the first to brag about shaven legs and about not feeling any cold. Spring is in the air!

I used to be the black sheep of the family cause I was born in Twente. But this militant individual has left the flock to become a shepherd of his own breed. And what better way to celebrate life than going back to your own roots one day. Lemme see… the 20th of March sounds pretty kewl to go back in time and check if I’m still the king of the streets of Enschede like I thought I was. Niks hennig an, veur’n met die bak!